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How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
—Alexander Pope, "Eloisa to Abelard" English poet & satirist (1688 - 1744)
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**LET GO! SHOO THEM AWAY! - 021308


**Other people's problems might be some people's pleasure. SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU WHORE! - 012107


**Spare my stupidity. Haha!- 051807


**I PERSONALLY THINK THAT MARIE ANTOINETTE ROCKS! Agree people? :-) - 122506


**SHOOT ME! - 112506


**People would always know better than you.... OR SO THEY THINK! ASSf*ckinH*LES! -forever


**Sometimes it grips you so hard that you want to vomit but your pride tells you not to, coz your crush is seeing you. -060806


**Boredom shmoredom! -060106


**If not it's not for you, DON't PUSH HARD!


**The end is the beginning...031606


**Live your life for the MOMENT!


**Just talk nonsense. It would turn out positively. Negative multiplied to negative is positive. Mind me, I talk nonsense.


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Thursday, January 08, 2009
Damn You Macadamia Nuts!

Because of you, my lower lip feels like Angelina's.
 
Okay, so I ate about less than ten pieces of macadamia nuts here in the office last Tuesday. There's lots of pasalubong loot in the pantry 'cause some of my officemates went to different places (Guam, N.Y., etc.) on holiday break. After eating the nuts, my lower lip started to itch, and next thing I know, it's already swelling.
 
Buti nalang masarap 'yung nuts, at hindi ako nagsisisi. :)
 

Posted at 04:04 am by Ayeen
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Tuesday, December 02, 2008
What the fuck

There are barriers to the growth of a healthy relationship. Name it jealousy, insecurity, paranoia, possessiveness, and (gasp) insanity. All of which I think I have. And now you see my big dilemma.
 
Life isn't perfect, I get it. I knew from the start. When in grade school, I saw classmate with her mini, battery-operated electric fan in class, when almost everyone has that cool pencil case, the one with lots of buttons that when pushed some sort of a pocket/drawer pops out. I knew it when all of my highschool classmates had their first cellular phones, a nokia 3210 in fact, and I have nothing but this heavy feeling of envy. 
 
Life is not perfect that way.
 
And so are people.
 
More and more, I know that I am becoming a heavy load. I know not everyone gets me. But unfortunately, neither do I.
 
How can anyone get me, when I cannot even get myself?
 
Strangely, I have this tendency to keep everything to myself, even if it's already too much to bear. I wake up every morning, take a bath, ride jeepneys to and from work, while thinking of the same thoughts over and over. I'm very much in despair to have a peace of mind, to rid my mind off the usual shit, aside from when I'm asleep.
 
Now, I can really say that I have become a very different person. Am I happy with how I turned-out? Not even close. The problem remains to be how to turn my back against the things/thoughts that I acknowledge to have bad effects on my being. How to get all these out of my head? How to start with a clean, fresh slate?
 
I think I need professional help. I think I need whatever drug there is, to help me relax, to soothe my mind. I think I know what I need, but honestly I don't.
 
Who would help me? And how I can I be helped in the first place, if I couldn't even help myself?
 
All I want is stability, in all aspect. Is it too huge of a dream? Just like everyone else, I have high hopes. And then it occurred to me, maybe because of these hopes, I turned out to be this way.
 
Maybe it's time to embrace this, coming from this tough girl I once have been...
 
I'm just a fragile human being.
 
The weaknesses, the fear of being hurt, of losing a game I have always won, of becoming more insecure, more scared of the future, of losing trust, or of just losing, all has been triumphant
 
well, except me.
 

Posted at 01:42 pm by Ayeen
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Thursday, November 27, 2008
a little bit

Crazy. Paranoid. Insane. Sad. Happy. Fearful. Proud. High. Low. Mournful. Confused. Curious. Conscious. Blissful. Fulfilled. Regretful. Satisfied. Unworthy. Experimental. Ordinary. Exaggerated. Complicated. Serious. Spaced-out. Dead. Alive.
 
 
 

Posted at 09:50 am by Ayeen
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Thirty-two Things That Change When You Have a Baby

What changes when you have a baby? A better question may be: What doesn't change? Here, writer and mom Rebecca Woolf lists her most notable post-baby observations. Then scroll down to read our favorite comments from readers about how their babies changed their lives.

1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms.

2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.

3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices.

4. You respect your body ... finally.

5. You respect your parents and love them in a new way.

6. You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own.

7. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child.

8. You lose touch with the people in your life whom you should have banished years ago.

9. Your heart breaks much more easily.

10. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day.

11. Every day is a surprise.

12. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!)

13. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.

14. You become a morning person.

15. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power.

And from our readers...

1. "You discover how much there is to say about one tooth." — Ashley's mom

2. "You finally realize that true joy doesn't come from material wealth." — Anonymous

3. "You now know where the sun comes from." — Charlotte

4. "You'd rather buy a plastic tricycle than those shoes that you've been dying to have." — Sophie's mom

5. "You realize that although sticky, lollipops have magical powers." — Roxanne

6. "You don't mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night." — Kellye

7. "Silence? What's that?" — Anonymous

8. "You realize that the 15 pounds you can't seem to get rid of are totally worth having." — Brenda

9. "You discover an inner strength you never thought you had." — Ronin and Brookie's mom

10. "You no longer rely on a clock — your baby now sets your schedule." — Thomas' mom

11. "You give parents with a screaming child an 'I-know-the-feeling' look instead of a 'Can't-they-shut-him-up?' one." — Jaidyn's mom

12. "Your dog — who used to be your 'baby' — becomes just a dog." — Kara

13. "You take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you'll be late." — Tracey

14. "You learn that taking a shower is a luxury." — Jayden's mom

15. "You realize that you can love a complete stranger." — Dezarae's mom

16. You find yourself wanting to make this world a better place. — Arizona

17. If you didn't believe in love at first sight before, now you do!  — Ciara
 
 
***
 
IMO: "Even if you're not ready for it, hearing your baby's first cry, seeing her smile and feeling that she needs to hear you heartbeat could bring you happiness. Happiness caused by the thought that you have brought another human into the world.
 
And that this, by far, was the greatest achievement."

Posted at 04:12 am by Ayeen
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Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Shout out: To the Universe

 

 

I WISH I AM THE OPTIMISTIC PERSON ON EARTH.


Posted at 10:22 am by Ayeen
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Random

A FACT ABOUT ME:

I HATE FLIRTS.

I FREAKIN' HATE THEM EFFING MUCH THAT I WANNA SET THEM ON FIRE.

FO'FUCKIN'REAL!


Posted at 04:38 am by Ayeen
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Friday, November 21, 2008
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